God and Jesus.
I suppose these two words are intended to be synonyms. I mean, if you believe in the Trinity (which I do), these separate beings are One. Unfortunately, Jesus is generally portrayed as the more loving, accepting face of God. I can visualize myself crawling into the lap of my Savior when I've screwed up, but God seems more stand-offish and offended by my sin. I'm currently struggling with trust, and this morning I heard an old hymn on the radio. The words rang fresh in my ears, and although I wish I could say I believe the lyrics wholeheartedly, I don't. In those fleeting moments when I have trusted Jesus, life is sweet. But these instances are rare, and most days I spin my wheels banking on my own efforts to improve my circumstance. God seems distant and inconsistent.
The last line of the hymn struck a chord in my heart. "Oh, for grace to trust Him more . . . " Maybe this trust thing isn't something I can conquer. Perhaps the mercy of Christ is the only thing that will usher in this confidence I so desperately want.
’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
Just to know “Thus saith the Lord!”
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!